May 31, 2013


Hello, hello. 
Recent events have pushed me to really focus on the things I want, and try to make them happen. One of those things is to lose some weight and get toned. I thought today I could talk a little bit about my history with weight loss and fitness. I was thinking about my current weight and remembered when I was 12 and on a trip to California. I weighed myself because there was a scale (which we didn't have at home). I remember clearly: 115 pounds. It didn't mean much to me since I didn't understand pounds because I'm from Europe (hello, Kg...) I also remember that my best friend was thin, and I'd been told she and I had different body shapes. Basically, I was told I was a little heavy. I didn't like that at all. 

12, 13... I was a teenager by then and very aware of my body. I didn't like what I saw in the mirror one bit.  I knew I was heavier than some of my friends who at that age still looked petite with no curves. But I didn't know how to lose weight, I didn't know how to eat. So I'd do unhealthy things like skip lunch. Then I'd come home around 4pm and have a gigantic snack... I didn't know much about portions or calories. I didn't lose any weight. It's not like I was starving myself. I never had the self control to be anorexic, and I love food way too much! 

Fast forward to when I was turning 15 years old. I'm half colombian and in Colombia we celebrate the "quinceaƱera" which is like a Sweet 16 when you're 15. I picked out this beautiful dress on this website (yes, I still remember!) and it said Waist: 27. My waist was not 27. I think it was 28 or 29. This was a small detail but to make sure I fit into the dress, I decided to finally go on a diet. My mom's friend recommended the Dukan diet, which is a protein diet in 4 phases. I honestly can't believe how well I followed it. It's the only time I've ever had any self control for so long haha. I believe I went from 115 lbs (52kg) to 110 lbs (50kg). The dress fit and we all lived happily ever after... Thanks to the Dukan diet, I learned about portions, about proteins, and how to eat well. I realized you don't have to starve yourself to lose weight.

What pushed me to write this today? Weighing myself this morning. 48 kg. For some reason, I felt like googling "kg to lbs". Result? 105 lbs. Then I went WOW... I've lost 10 pounds? What has changed since the first/last diet? I started working out (but still not a lot), and most importantly, I try to eat smaller portions and only when I'm hungry. I try to gather all the self-control I have (which is not much) when I'm hungry and making myself lunch or dinner and try to remind myself that just because I'm staaaarving doesn't mean I can eat a cow. It's funny, you think that just because you're really hungry, you'll be able to eat more, so you fill up your plate... but it's such a mistake. Whenever I have that "Oh my god, I ate way too much" feeling, I make a mental note of everything I just ate and try to put less on my plate next time. Speaking of feeling full, I actually have a tendency to eat until I can't eat anymore because I love food so much. It's a mistake, and so now I try to focus even MORE on portions and what's on the plate. I have a pretty good idea of how much food I need to satisfy my hunger... it's a lot less than you would think. If we all stopped eating when our body said "yep, that's enough fuel for now", we would all be a lot thinner, I think. I like the idea of eating smaller meals throughout the day instead of three big meals. In fact, I read somewhere that we should all be doing that.

These days, I'm a lot happier with my body but I still want a flat belly, no love handles and thinner (and MUCH more toned!) inner thighs. I'm still learning, and sometimes I give into the temptation of eating a lot of something I love. But my recent trip to Italy taught me that I am a lot stronger than I thought I was. My dad and I were there for 6 days and I ate one and a half pizzas. That is all! In Italy! Past summers, I've been known to eat a pizza every day. They're so thin and delicious, you can most definitely eat a pizza for lunch or dinner. If I were to go back to L'antica Pizzeria da Michele, I would of course, no doubt about it, eat a whole pizza. The point is... I'm stronger now.

I love cooking, I love thinking of the healthy things I'll feed my kids one day, and I love learning about portions, etc. That was my story and I have a lot of health/food related posts in store for you... stay tuned. Cheers, Vx


Lizzy @ Lizzy's Luggage said...

I loved reading about your journey! I am absolutely in love with food, and that's where my problem lies too. I eat more for taste than if I have room in my stomach. I haven't done a very good job so far, but I'm hoping to become more conscious of what I eat like you have! Great Post!


Jana Miller said...

Congrats-it's always a hard journey and always seems to be changing-love to lose my love handles but I'm eating whole foods and theya re still there. oh well.

Jana @ 333 Days of Hand Lettering

Anonymous said...

I used to be called "2 pizza for Eszter". But now that I am in my thirties I just cannot allow myself this kind of fun. Self-control can also be satisfying as it is clear from your blog as well. :)

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